My Birthday 2016

I think of my birthday 2016 because Valentine’s Day is coming up in a month and it makes me think of other upcoming special days such as Mother’s Day and as I mentioned, my birthday.

It’s my birthday and I have to go on a work day trip and leave early, so I won’t be able to do everything for our daughter like I usually do. The day before, I ask Shawn to take care of our daughter that morning, but she is used to Mommy doing it.

I get up early on my birthday and get breakfast and our daughter’s lunch ready. I am getting dressed for work and I can hear our daughter telling Daddy that she wants Mommy. I know it’s tough, but I have gotten as much done for them as I can.

I head downstairs to say goodbye and give hugs before I go. As I enter the room and say that I am leaving now. His response…

Keep walking (in a gruff unfriendly way)
You said you need to leave at 7:45 and it’s now past that (7:47). You need to go now.

I make a face cause I don’t understand why he is speaking to me this way

He says – you are making this worse by staying here (referring to our daughter being upset)

I say – what is wrong with you? Why do you need to be this way?

I start to cry because it’s my birthday and Shawn is being mean to me. Again.

My husband says – what’s wrong with you? I’ve had Sophia crying and she wouldn’t go potty.

I say – if she’s upset sometimes it’s good to just walk away and give her space. (I said this cause I heard her crying almost the whole time)

I hug my daughter goodbye and try to comfort her since I know she is upset I’m leaving early. As I’m doing that, I hear my husband telling me to leave. I start to cry because of our exchange and the fact it is my birthday. He calls me emotional.

I put down my daughter, grab my stuff and leave.

As I’m leaving the house, he opens the door and says Happy Birthday.

I laugh cause that is a ridiculous statement. Happy Birthday after everything that went on??? Like I’m supposed to thank him after our exchange. His statement was also an afterthought.

He wonders why I laugh.

On my drive to work, he calls and I initially don’t pick up. He calls again. I pick up and he has our daughter sing happy birthday.

He says he will order a cake and we can go to a restaurant (that he will pick) for my birthday. I really don’t want to talk to him right now. He has not apologized. This doesn’t make up for what happened that morning.

A few days later, I mention it to him and admits “he could have treated me nice on my birthday”. What I say inside my head – fuck you, you’re an asshole.

So – how do I get out of doing anything for any of the special days cause Mother’s Day was no better and I have had to pay for a previous Valentine’s Day and Mother’s Day dinner. Ruin my day once, same on you right….

My birthdays are usually nice – this was the worst birthday ever. I have one month to figure out how I get out of all of these special holidays. Any ideas?